I played that role. Woke up in the morning, took Subuh, and went to the bathroom. Well, today i felt better than the other day. Aku merasa aku mendapatkan sesuatu yang mungkin belum pernah aku temukan. I couldn't define that, i just felt it. Hari ini aku merasakan bahwa aku akan baik-baik saja, aku merasa that i'm in the heaven.NOW.
I played that role. Went to the school, haven't study Math, lost my book. Everything changed. Aku merasa bahwa aku mendapatkan kesialan yang bertubi kali ini. Felt hard to do the exam, heard someone that hate me, and so on, and so on. Dan hal ini membuatku merasa that i'm in the Jail. No, i mean i feel that i'm in hell.NOW.
It was so complicated. Ketika beberapa saat aku merasa bahagia dan beberapa lagi aku merasa sangat tersiksa. I can't control this feeling, i tried to make just flow like usual, but semuanya gagal. aku hanya mendapatkan kesengsaraan yang lebih dibandingkan dengan kebahagiaan. Seriously, i knew that everyone got this problem, and i need the answer, why should i get this sucks problem?
Sucks
Did you ever feel when you fall in love? i mean benar-benar jatuh cinta. terdengar alay memang, but for me, it was not. I'm trying to think that i never love her, but seriously ini gagal. Entah kenapa, aku hanya mengagumi dia. I just think that she more beautiful than others. dan rasa ini berawal, ketika aku duduk di kelas sepuluh, tepatnya satu SMA. She became my deskmate. dan semenjak itu, honestly konsentrasiku buyar, entah kenapa, she changed everything.
However, sampai kapanpun dia gak bakalan peka, i mean she never know what is my feeling to her, i just keep it. Aku tahu bahwa dia "mungkin" sudah punya orang lain. Tapi apa salahnya jika sekarang aku menjadi "pemuja rahasianya". Aku hanya mengaguminya. Sudah. Enough from that sentence. Mungkin hanya aku dan Tuhan yang mengetahui siapa orangnya.
Dan, mungkin aku sekarang mencoba untuk dekat dengannya. Belum sampai tengah jalan, banyak yang bilang that i love with her. Oh, gosh. They were so sucks. But truly, yes i love with her. and as i know, that she has another "boy" in her life. Ok, i think menjadi "Pemuja Rahasia" itu sudah cukup. Aku cukup mengagumi "dia" di sini. Sudah cukup untuk mendekatinya, i just wanna keep this secret. I don't want anyone knows about this. Just me and God. Honestly, i love with her till now.
However, sampai kapanpun dia gak bakalan peka, i mean she never know what is my feeling to her, i just keep it. Aku tahu bahwa dia "mungkin" sudah punya orang lain. Tapi apa salahnya jika sekarang aku menjadi "pemuja rahasianya". Aku hanya mengaguminya. Sudah. Enough from that sentence. Mungkin hanya aku dan Tuhan yang mengetahui siapa orangnya.
Dan, mungkin aku sekarang mencoba untuk dekat dengannya. Belum sampai tengah jalan, banyak yang bilang that i love with her. Oh, gosh. They were so sucks. But truly, yes i love with her. and as i know, that she has another "boy" in her life. Ok, i think menjadi "Pemuja Rahasia" itu sudah cukup. Aku cukup mengagumi "dia" di sini. Sudah cukup untuk mendekatinya, i just wanna keep this secret. I don't want anyone knows about this. Just me and God. Honestly, i love with her till now.
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